So here I am, up late at night, feeling excited to do art, even though I need to be getting up for work in seven hours. So doing one more page of my dino project won't hurt, right?
Thing is, its just a part of why I'm awake. I fight with my wakeful mind every night, work be damned. And that's because I know that I'd be doing more good in the world by being at home, working on my art, learning new skills and the programs better, and spreading my message of planetary awareness as well as bringing people's attentions back to the idea of stories that kept our imaginations alive.
I'll fully admit to not always having the plan of making art a career choice. It's a lot of hard work, and you're almost always doing some other job to keep up with bills. That's the way it is. And then after your actual job, where do you get the energy to do art? And then the time? Especially if you have a family and household to take care of. How some lovely ladies I know manage it leaves me in wonderment.
And then there's what my art is; what I want to focus on as an artist, and what it means to me. Well, in a way my art journey is my pilgrimage. It's spiritual. The type of art that I do that's spontaneous and a little out of place with so many tiny details that have their individual meanings is literally me trying to communicate what's inside me with the rest of the world. Trying to translate raw passions and thoughts into images people can not just understand, but feel too. That's a big goal to reach, and a connection that I've been seeking in my art path over the years. I'm getting closer.
But I don't feel near any enlightenment. Some days its there, and others it feels so damn far away. And really the journey is the joy and the life, not so much the journey's end. Still, it would be nice to know if my muse ever plans to be a regular visitor in my brain - that would be nice at least.
And yet even after all this sharing, I still want to do;
- all the things
- commissions AND personal projects
- and lets be crazy and dream about a booth at a con xD
Any ways, rather long update done - I hope you guys enjoy the work you've seen so far, and I hope to have much more updates my dino-book secret project is complete! Thank you so much for all your support!!